So much to say

I have so many thoughts drifting through my head.  I want to blog about them but I guess I have my internal edit button on.  I figure why does anyone want to read what I have to say?  What's so interesting about me and my thoughts? 
I want to create things.  I want to make art. I feel like I have this creative energy that just wants to burst from every pore but I don't know how.  Do you know what I mean?  I'm not a writer by any stretch of the imagination.  I love photography and think I am pretty good at that but not at the same time.  I can't draw worth a lick and if you put a paint brush in my hand it's hard to tell what my show up on canvas.   I know art is subjective but I guess it's my low self esteem and insecurities that tells me I'm no good. 
Just thought I would put this out there.  I don't even think anyone reads this.  I don't know how to go about getting readers either.  I guess I will learn.

Just throwing it out to the universe

So I want to be a preschool teacher.  I have thought about my career often over the past year and everything leads me back to wanting to teach preschool.  It's a total career change and would mean going back to school.  I am already really busy.  I can't ignore the pull in this direction. 

On Friday I took the plunge.  I enrolled into an online university for Early Childhood Education.  I am still nervous and scared about it.  Second guessing myself but deep down I know it's the right thing for me.  So if you could say some prayers to help me through it I would appreciate it. 

Thanks.

About me

I was reading Shelly's blog and she had a fun post about 10 quirky things about her. So, here are my 10 quirky things.

1) I work in television and that in and of itself is quirky.

2)  I love running.  Some people find this weird.  I find it enjoyable.


3)  I love racing as well.  The atmosphere of a race is undescribable to those who have never done it.  The energy you get from all the runners and really everyone is so friendly.


4)  My music tastes are quirky.  It changes from month to month what I like right now it's country.


5)  I love photography and have dreams of being a professional photographer.


6)  I am random.  I will pop out with the most random things.  We can be talking about one thing and all of the sudden I start talking about something so totally off subject.  I can't help myself.


7) I love my message boards.  I belong to 2 and probably spend to much time checking them.


8)  I dont' live and die by UK athletics and if you live in or around Lexington KY that is quirky.


9)  I am organizationally challenged.  Our house is so out of order and I have no idea what to do to fix that.


10)  I am a Yankees fan which is weird here in KY.

Emily

My precious little munchkin is 16 months old.  I can't believe it.  Seems like yesterday she was this big.

 

Now look at her

 

She is walking and talking.  Loves books.  Which we need to get some new ones.  Mommy is tired of reading the same ones over and over and over again...lol.  She is like her daddy and wakes up slow in the morning.  She gets so excited when I come back in from a run and I love that.  She gives hugs and kisses and says thank you. She loves food.  I don't think there has been anything she hasn't just loved.   I think yogurt and potato soup are her favorite things to eat.  She loves her duck, good luck bear and this little teddy bear that I have know idea where it came from.  She loves to play with her friends at the babysitters house.  She plays so hard and as soon as they leave she passes out.  She is just such a joy and a happy child.  I LOVE YOU MUNCHKIN!

please help

I have a challenge for all my friends.  I need 100 people to donate $30 to the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society.  Who is in?  Blood born cancers can touch anyone of us. Wouldn't you want a cure.  Help out by stepping up to the challenge go to my website to make that donation!  Thanks all!
http://pages.teamintraining.org/ky/rnr10/ndeppr

I need to get back to it.

I need to get back to losing the rest of the weight.  I fell like I have slacked off. I still run and exercise I have just let the eating go by the way side.  So today I stand before you or write before you that I will do better.  I am going to try to eat better and limit the amount of sweets and mindless snacking that I have fallen into.  I have been quite stressed since signing up to do team in trianing because of the fund raising involved so therefor my stress has led to eating poorly.  Shame on me.  I would really like to get this money raised soon so I can get this monkey of my back.  The thought of having to pay the money myself is daunting and stressful. 

Any way Emily is doing great.  She is saying more words everyday.  She is now attached to a stuffed ducky.  It's so cute to watch her read her books and just play around.  I love my munchkin.

Creativity

I don't think I am an overly creative person but I think deep down inside somewhere lives a desire to be.  I want to do so many things.  I want to be a photographer, a painter, a baker and I want to learn how to knit.  All things that take some creativity but I feel I fall flat.  I was recently talking via facebook to an ex-coworker who asked if I was still painting.  I said no but maybe I should try that again.  He agreed that I should.  When he left my former employer I did a painting for him.  He had it hanging in his office at his new job.  I guess it is still there.  It's nice that someone believed in my ability.

The problem is this, I sit down to paint or I sit out to take some photos and I can't come up with anything.  I will stare at a blank canvas and just feel an overwhelming feeling of wanting to paint something beautiful but nothing comes to me or what I end up with is so disappointing that I walk away discouraged.  I haven't ever really put much effort into trying to knit.  I did buy some needles and a how to kit once and couldn't even do the first stitch.  How is that for a confidence boost.  I am not one that can teach myself things I guess. I need to be shown.  Cake decorating and baking I do try to work on and am getting better at that.  My waistline doesn't thank me.

So this is what I have to say I guess creativity if you are out there can you come and find me?  Just come and be my friend for a while and that is all I ask.