So much to say

I have so many thoughts drifting through my head.  I want to blog about them but I guess I have my internal edit button on.  I figure why does anyone want to read what I have to say?  What's so interesting about me and my thoughts? 
I want to create things.  I want to make art. I feel like I have this creative energy that just wants to burst from every pore but I don't know how.  Do you know what I mean?  I'm not a writer by any stretch of the imagination.  I love photography and think I am pretty good at that but not at the same time.  I can't draw worth a lick and if you put a paint brush in my hand it's hard to tell what my show up on canvas.   I know art is subjective but I guess it's my low self esteem and insecurities that tells me I'm no good. 
Just thought I would put this out there.  I don't even think anyone reads this.  I don't know how to go about getting readers either.  I guess I will learn.

Just throwing it out to the universe

So I want to be a preschool teacher.  I have thought about my career often over the past year and everything leads me back to wanting to teach preschool.  It's a total career change and would mean going back to school.  I am already really busy.  I can't ignore the pull in this direction. 

On Friday I took the plunge.  I enrolled into an online university for Early Childhood Education.  I am still nervous and scared about it.  Second guessing myself but deep down I know it's the right thing for me.  So if you could say some prayers to help me through it I would appreciate it. 

Thanks.